Thursday, November 03, 2005

Out of Control...totally

I wish I had some newsworthy knitting content for today but the only thing I have to say is that I made progress on the right front of trellis last night..... buttonholes and all. I'm not sure why I was putting that off... the buttonholes consisted of "yo, knit 2 tog" period. Maybe if I would have read ahead like most people do, I wouldn't have been concerned about it. For some reason I thought button holes were a lot more complicated than that. I've made them before but I can never remember. Anyhow, another good week on trellis and I think it's finished.

So why am I out of control? Well, my eating habits have been out of control lately. Maybe if I come clean here I'll shape up (so to speak) and mend my piggish ways. The truth is, I've eaten more Halloween candy than all of our neighborhood kids put together and I've been stopping at McDonalds a lot lately which is really not like me at all. In the last two weeks I've probably had 3 or 4 Egg McMuffins. That's bad enough, but this morning I ordered a Sausage, Egg, and Cheese McGriddle. If you've ever had one of these, I know you'll be concerned. As I was eating it, I just kept thinking.... I'm glad I had my blood work done BEFORE I ate this thing. I think I can feel my veins clogging. It was so disgustingly greasy (and good I might add) that the guilt is going to stay with me ... well, probably..... until tomorrow morning. I imagine that, soon, the ladies who clean my office and empty my waste basket are going to try some type of an intervention with me. I don't know what set me off in this direction. I was doing so well. It seems like the only time I can really stay on track is if I have something important, some event, to look good for. I lost 20 lbs. for my daughter's wedding two years ago and I lost 10 this summer for my fancy Kiawah vacation and my niece's wedding. I have nada right now to get excited about. I don't think it's fair to try to talk one of my other kids into getting married so I can lose weight and another expensive vacation isn't going to happen, well, probably ever again in this lifetime. I hate weight problems. Ok, I got that off my chest...NO MORE MCDONALDS! (I wonder what's on the breakfast menu at Burger King?)


Heather said...

ACK! Don't go to Burger King... their stuff is worse than MickeyD's! I understand the "the ladies who clean my office and empty my waste basket"... I'm always thinking that our super slim cleaning lady at work is probably thinking, "she eats alot of garbage".